Sometimes marriage disappoints...
My sweet baby sister, Judy-Bug, was talking about my blog. You know how sisters know you better than anyone else? She suggested that I tell about times when Mark and I struggle. I totally agree. When I wrote my last blog, I was not speaking to Mark because I was so mad at him. Sometimes when I can't stand the sight of Mark, I type all my thoughts. Once when I did this, I made a list of all the reasons I was mad. Then I wrote "reasons why I love Mark." Underneath, I typed in large, red font "Nothing. I do not like anything about you today!" I felt a lot better. I showed it to him the next morning so he would know how I felt. By the time, he had read the 28 things that I did not like about him and then read that I did not like anything about him(in large, red font)...well, I fell out laughing because I thought that maybe he may have a list about me.
Favorite sayings are "Mark, I have not had a happy day since college!" Really? Another famous saying is when I kept asking for a "knife" and Mark finally yelled "I can't help it if you don't have a "life." I meekly responded that I was not asking for a "new life." I just wanted a knife to cut my meat.
Sometimes when we are arguing and we decide to pray about it, I feel that there is no hope. But God always, always restores our joy. Always! I realize that there are people reading this blog that feel like if they had a sweet, kind husband then they would do what the Bible says about wives. It does not work that way. You cannot say, "God, I will be faithful to your commands WHEN you change my husband." We must say to God, "I will be faithful, whether or not I know the outcome.
I can remember in college when Mark asked a gorgeous girl to be his date to Homecoming. I was not that gorgeous girl. I was devastated!!! I cried my eyes out for two days. Then I drew a line in the sand and said "I will trust you no matter what the outcome of our relationship." I wanted the trust to be in place first.
